Thursday, April 28, 2011

and so it goes ...

the relationship with the malemate is tepid at best. on the way home from OK this past weekend, he said, "maybe we should think about getting a divorce. we'll put the house on the market and split everything up."
believe it or not, i stayed silent.
so, on tuesday, as i was scouring the net to try to find some work, i kept one ear to the other room, listening for him to call a real estate agent. it didn't happen.
wednesday, it didn't happen.
today, it didn't happen.
maybe he changed his mind ... this time.
it concerns me.
what will be, will be... no doubt.

i do think about "the guy" every day.
stop it!
butButBUT i just received the latest brochure for overnights at the casino for the month of may.
stop it!
i wonder if i should book a room and text him.
stop it!

i think i need a timeout.
can i get that timeout with a scotch and a gorilla juice vape?
oh and a mind-thump chaser please.  

8 comments:

Laoch of Chicago said...

You're having a pretty depressing year. I hope things will get better for you.

justjock said...

remember...this man is just like the rest of us...he has a penis. penis=bad, remember?

CausedByKarma said...

@laoch - i'm thinking once i get to the lowest point there will no place else to go but to start the climb back up, right?

@jock - yeh, but bad is so much more fun ... sometimes. if only there were not so friggin many repercussions that go along with "bad"

suzy said...

hugs to you, bren. Some days I just wanna stay in bed and pull the covers over my head.

I don't know what to say about all this except i'm sorry you are hurting/confused/in a muddle right now. Like your good friend jock, I AM here...anytime...and i have pretty wide shoulders.

the mouse who is still searching for the right way in the world herself

ColleenQ said...

I almost want to suggest a visit to a marriage counsellor...I mean, is there anything to lose by that? Of course, this goes against my very nature, so like Jock: just ignore anything I have to say about relationships.

CausedByKarma said...

@suzy - thanks. i LOVE sleeping with the sheet over my head! this too will pass. the problem is, i am an impatient person.

@colleen - i did mention a counselor to him and he agreed that we should do that. but of course, neither of us have made a call. so, the question is, do we really want to put the effort into it? hell, i don't know. i do know that things have been much better the past few days.

kittycatlane said...

BIG HUGE HUGS! Oh, and Jock... it's not the penis that's bad it's what comes with it that CAN be. Steph

justjock said...

steph: are you my sister?